Blog Re-purposing
Since the last couple of posts of mine I've been gaining a bit of clarity concerning myself. I guess it's kind of natural then that this clarity would lead to effects in my life.
One of which is that I'm starting to decide I'm going to accept who I am. You probably weren't thinking of what I'm about to say after reading that, but what I really meant by that is accepting my supernatural side. When I was very young, around 2, I saw a spirit standing outside my bedroom door. Seeing it frightened me a lot and I hid under the covers in my crib. I know I was only 2 so it's possible my memory could be distorting things, but I know what I saw. On a couple of occasions I've experienced "things" touching me that obviously didn't come from any physical thing. The last of these touches happened when I was a teenager, but I've since experienced other strange things. But no touches, no spirit sightings.
Last year I spoke with a spirit and asked him how I could restore my vision. He brought my attention back to a very early childhood experience that frightened me so much I made a deep decision not to see certain things. Typical in the spirits I'm drawn to, he just planted a seed for me to see to fruition. Lately I've been thinking the experience he mentioned was me seeing that spirit. I know when I experienced the last unexplained touching I forcefully asked whatever it was to stop and never since did I experience anything similar. Considering my spirit sighting as a toddler makes me wonder if I'm blocking an aspect of myself.
I'm really drawn to human nature, our inner worlds. It's not something that can be displayed on television or the Internet, but it's a large and fascinating thing. Strange as it may seem considering what I write about on this blog, but I'm just starting to realize how fascinated I am with it. I think I've found a new path for myself to explore. Funny how the river of life winds its way, I ramble and discover something new in the process.
I can't really say I know who I am fully, but I'm at least recognizing more aspects of myself. I think I'll start writing more about human nature on this blog. Still the same thing really, but it feels like a turning point for me. I want to see again.