Ascension
Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex - Lithium Flower [full]
You ever watch Stargate SG-1? It's a cool sci-fi show where one of the race of characters are ascended beings. These are people who have transcended ordinary existence to become pure energy and exist in another plane of reality. The process of becoming one is shown quite a few times in the show. It basically involves the person's body becoming enveloped in white light (typically shaped like a big amoeba, haha) and they float away.
Like my leaf in the wind, emotion blog entry, my thoughts are being jumbled around at the moment. Do you think it's possible to ascend, like how it's depicted in the show? While thinking about something I learned today the "emotions as a leaf in the wind" analogy formed in my mind. Just noticing how happy and content (and relatively undisturbed) I was and then all of a sudden after hearing the news I have a wellspring of differing emotions, and suddenly I'm not so content and undisturbed anymore. I was calm about it and just sat on my bed, I didn't really know what else to do. It's an interesting thing when you live your life somewhat devoid of emotions only to have them rush into your view. What do you do?
The other interesting thing is just being however you are and observing what happens, which is also what I did. The emotions, a subject for a scientist to study. And like any good experiment observing a subject, you just observe it and don't interfere with it, lest it behave differently than it otherwise might. So, I sit with my differing emotions. Amazing that such differing feelings can co-exist. Why do I toggle between emotions and feelings as if they're the same thing? But, they do exist together and I'm, calm, observing.
Somewhere along the path of my life I picked up a thought that if I became too happy I would die. I wonder. Would that be ascension? If I were so filled with true happiness that I simply, floated away and died. Like a helium balloon that dissolves the cord anchoring it, it floats away, high into the sky. Why did my emotions lead me to this today?