You're My Angel
I have to admit I absolutely love life. Quite a turnaround for someone who once often considered suicide.
Lately the song I've felt compelled to play over and over has been DJ Sammy's "You're My Angel". It's a euro house song from 1998 I stumbled upon during the mp3 free-for-all that was college. I just find it fascinating to consider why I'm so suddenly fascinated with it. Been on various drives and discs for years and not once have I loved it out of the blue like I do now.
I remember there was a girl I liked and I was letting her listen to a mix CD I made that had this song. While playing the songs on the CD I skipped this song because I felt embarrassed to like it and didn't want her to know I did. It's odd though because she was a clubber and probably would love this song. That's what music can do for you, take you back to past times.
What I find so fascinating about my sudden rediscovery of this song are the other things I'm learning that seem to connect to that experience. Foremost is the thought that expressing your true self, rather than being embarrassed about it and hiding, will actually bring you more of what you want. I say thought but it's turning more into a feeling, something I'm finding less of a need to actively think about to express. The tree of mind is growing roots into the heart.
The other fascinating thing is the timing. I find it so hard to resist pondering the why. There may be nothing else to glean from the timing, but I don't know, I still want to savor it. Why do feelings and compulsions arise seemingly out of the blue? Hm, the universe is mystery-filled -- and I wouldn't have it any other way. :)