A heading found
I'm not sure where I'm going or what I want out of life. No grand ambitions, no plans. Feel almost adrift at sea, the possibilities of where to go endless. Yet there are times when I know I'm headed in the right direction. It's a feeling. That indescribable feeling of joy and happiness. When you stumble upon something new and unexpected and you can't help but scream in ecstasy. Those moments are markers, that's when I know the direction of my life.
The game Folklore inspired that and this post. The music in it is some of the best I've heard. The title screen music is a short little piece, but it's full of the innocence of childhood, of infinite possibilities. Before knowledge sets in and constrains the mind. But yet, adults composed it. Adults who haven't lost their childhood wonder, adults who dream, adults that have knowledge in an unconstrained mind.
That's how the chess greats work. They consider the possibilities some might otherwise deem absurd. To free your mind and ponder what ought not to be pondered. Ha! Life is great. Sometimes there are possibilities we don't consider because we constrain ourselves, our thinking. Considering only what is proper, things that won't invite derision from others. But sometimes the best moves to make lie outside of what is proper, outside what is logical; outside the bounds of our own creation.
I used to think when I felt really happy around this time of year it was because I was happier as a child. Now I think it's just the unique sensory experiences available around this time that make me happy. They prompt that same boundless joy. To feel the deliciously crisp and cool night air. The smell of lilacs in the air. The surreal glow of night lights. The magic never fades.
How must a person act? What must certain kinds of people do? What stereotypes must we conform to? What things shall we not utter? :)