Inchoate Meanderings
I like posting the thoughts I have that reach conclusions, or at least interesting plateaus. This blog is like a notebook, an online diary of sorts; a place to bring them together in a way that's viewable by others. Thinking can definitely be an art form. Thoughts as things. Realizations and inspiration are like a jam session in a studio that unexpectedly cooks up a hit. :)
So my thoughts today center around hurting others and being okay with that. Not a malicious thing at all, just a balance from excessive compassion. A balance between compassion for others and expression of self. There were two people today I was thinking about and wondering if I had hurt their feelings by things I said. Nothing mean, just things you can say to someone that they're sensitive about, and thus most people never broach those tender personality areas. But in the dance of living a life sometimes you bump up against your fellow human beings and hurt them with no intention of doing so.
What to do, what to do. Don't dance? Apologize?...for living your life? The choices centering around callousness I rarely choose to indulge nowadays. But perhaps there's an option I haven't considered. Acceptance. Acceptance of the other's hurt feelings and my part in that, and acceptance that I too am living my life as best I can. Perhaps if the situation were repeated I might make different choices, but that doesn't make the choice I made bad or wrong. Hmm, every moment is a learning opportunity. Collisions subtly, or sometimes not so, alter the course of the participants. It's the way of nature it seems. A raindrop falls on your head, what happens?
What difference is there between perception and reality? If I perceive I've hurt someone and they do not perceive that, does that change the thoughts my perception spawned?
"At some point in our existence in the cosmos we will be all things. Be happy with yourself."
If I tell myself that enough one day I'll believe it. :)