Flow
There's something to be said for the thought that you create the life you need / want. However different it may be from some objective standard, what you're experiencing is what you want to experience.
My lesson learned today concerns flow of energy. It's a different slant on the idea of being true to yourself. Basically it occurred to me today that trying to modify my actions and behavior to elicit a desired response from someone else blocks my energy. This flow I'm referring to I liken to essence, you in a pure sense. That desire, that will, to live, to do, to be. It's liquid, it's in constant motion. Trying to change its flow is like putting a boulder in front of a stream. Though I describe it as liquid its direction isn't so mindless, not just controlled by gravity. No, it's intelligent, it is your will after all. :) The key idea is that of blockage though.
Maybe in the attempt to change myself I might get the desired response out of a person, but am I true to myself at that point? Of course another idea is that there is no way to not be true to myself since I am always myself, I would just simply change into a new person. But it's that feeling of flow I found interesting today as an indicator of personal truth. When it feels sharp, indicative of turning suddenly, of blockage, it doesn't feel good, it doesn't feel right. The analogy with water breaks down here of course since this flow is not governed by the same laws as is water on a planet. No, the direction of movement is determined by something else. Exactly what is beyond me at the moment, but I feel I know enough to say with some certainty it is intelligent. So the lesson is simply what is there to lose in being yourself, in letting your energy flow as you deem it. Perhaps you won't get you want, perhaps you will, perhaps you'll discover something different.
I think artists let their energy flow without boundaries. The more they are able to do so the more creative they are. Creativity isn't found in the known, it's in the unknown, and only the known can create boundaries, boundaries that direct the flow away from the unknown. As I write and think about this persistent thoughts about kundalini and blue chakra energy come to mind. Honesty, lies, truth, happiness. Interesting things.