Purple purple purple...excuse me *^_^*
Rambling is creative mind expression, what you get when you let the structures controlling thought drift away, if only for a while. :)
The subject for today's regularly scheduled ramble is centeredness. If time permits a dash of self-deprecating thought analysis. So why do I feel centered? Because I feel happy a lot lately. It's weird, it almost feels a gravity of sorts. I have an urge, an energy, to reach out, but leaving doesn't feel as happy as where I am. The seeker finding what it has sought. Does that make sense? On some level it does, madness is genius on some level.
Am I proud or arrogant or elitist in some fashion to think I'm a genius on some level? What limiting thoughts. No, not the proud part, but the self-judging one. Who needs an external critic when you can take their best traits and make them your own. That's what I've realized I do. A way for me to feel I can beat my critics, imaginary or not, at their own game. But what does it matter if another gets their jollies with the perception of my misfortune. If that's what makes them happy, who am I to deny them that. Fall and stumble I may!
Life is fun, life is enjoyable, it always and ever is. In the midst of pressing issues it may not seem as much. Sometimes, in retrospect, different areas are illuminated. The perspective of looking back can come, well, only when you look back. :) Can't look forward to look back. That's the fun and beauty of life, the perspectives. So so many perspectives. With a box of 64 color Crayolas do I play with only 3 colors, always and ever? But there are so many other colors to paint with! How much more lively the tapestry might be. More vivid. Vivider? Is that a word? Shucks, it is, and here I thought I was making it up.
I met someone today that I've met before and before. Every day for weeks now, I meet her. Today she was different when I met her again. I wondered in the drive back about asking her a question. If you were to die today would you be happy with the life you've lived? I like to think she'd say yes!